From: Ethan Cade Brimhall [mailto:email@example.com]
Sent: Monday, December 05, 2016 7:58 AM
So some things happened this week that I really don’t want to share with everyone right now. Maybe in some years if you ask me I’ll tell you, but right now it’s not a good idea. That stuff made me just shut down as a missionary. We only taught like 10 lessons this week, which is terrible compared to what we are usually clocking in.
Missions are not easy. Some are not easy because you harldy ever see success. Others are not easy because of the standard of living. And yet others are not easy because of interpersonal issues you find yourself stuck with. But missions are still so worth it.
Despite all of these problems and the little success we had this week, the people we met were amazing. FUNNY STORY FIRST okay so whenever we see Jehovah’s Witnesses, they run away when they see us. They know they can’t contend with the way Mormon missionaries can expound scripture to them. Anyways, we were contacting a referral, a young woman named Agness, and we met a couple of JWs. They were having a discussion with our referral. I was getting ready to converse with them, but they ran away (again), leaving only a pamphlet behind. Then we began our lesson with Agness and she was totally engaged and interested and really wanted to know more! I know she felt the Spirit in that lesson because I was giving it my all and I felt it too.
Mohamed and Lloyd, those two awesome guys I talked about a couple weeks ago, ask so many questions that just aren’t relevant to the principles they need to learn first. Finally, I gave it to them straight. I said “I could sit you down for a few hours and convince you intellectually that the church is true. That’s how I lived my life until I came on this mission. But that’s not true conversion! It’s not as powerful as the witness you can gain on your own from the Holy Ghost. Feel with your heart, not your brain.” My companion shared with them his conversion story to seal the deal. I think they got the message after our testimonies.
I don’t think there will ever be a week that is not an emotional rollercoaster. I’m dealing in souls here! But this one really was hard. As Nephi says, “O Lord, I have trusted in thee, and I will trust in thee forever. I will not put my trust in the arm of flesh; for I know that cursed is he that putteth his trust in the arm of flesh. Yea, cursed is he that putteth his trust in man or maketh flesh his arm.” Sometimes I put my trust in “the arm of flesh” and I really suffer. The past couple weeks I have done more and more of that. However, what happened this week threw me out of that and into a dark place where I felt that I had nothing and no one to trust. Prayer gets me through it all and it can get you through it all as well. Just be willing to act on what He tells you.
I love you all!